Karaoke Slog.

I need to be updating more. At first my plan was to update every day, then that became not possible and I swore I'd update every other day, and now I'm updating randomly and without urgency. But I've been so beeeeeeesyyy!! So much to do. Been steadily packing for 3 weeks and want to make the transition from here to there as smooth as possible. I kind of like moving. It sucks and it's hard but I throw away SO MUCH triflin' garbage and organize so much more. I like lifting things and putting them in nice stacks to be simplistically moved around like big legos. I do have a lot of stuff, but I'm not asking for anybody's help in getting it together, so there!

I try to take notes every day about stuff I can write about in my BLOG. Blog, blog, blog. What a hideous word. Truncation of: web log - modernization of: captain's log. I like captain's log so much better. For one thing, it's way science-fictionier, and thus betterDON'TARGUE. In Star Trek all the captains keep captain's logs. Pirates keep captain's logs too, and I guess non-pirate ship captains keep captain's logs too, but who cares about them? Honestly. This is the internet. It's been nothing but pirates, ninjas, cats and pornography for 15 years. I prefer captain's log, but to truncate that to "slog" is even worse than blog. "-log" is just one of those icky hiccup words that don't sound good with any combination of sounds in front of it, unless those sounds are "chocolate yule." Back me up.

To call it a journal is so emo. I used to have a livejournal and oh, man, how I hated the sound of my own voice after I read it over a year later. Ouch. No wonder the really great writers are depressed. I'm mediocre at best, and I wanted to Van Gogh myself. Or Oedipus myself, since I was reading it. But then someone could strap me to a chair in a damp cellar and read it to me...I guess I'd need to Helen Keller myself. But what if someone taught me how to speak by signing letters into my hands and read me my livejournal that way? I'd have to Lavinia myself, too. (English majors, holla!)

What the hell was I talking about? Slog, blog, keeping notes. I tried to carry a notebook with me for a few days to try to write blog notes in that, but I realized I couldn't whip out a fancy-schmancy little journal and scribble a bunch of junk into it when I was supposed to be combing the POP for irrelevancies (scrapyard lingo - you wouldn't understand. Gotta be cool like me and work in a scrapyard.) So anyway, I fold a piece of white computer paper in half and have four sections of paper, front and back, to take notes on, so that's what I do. Not exactly glamorous, but it works. And my little piece of paper is telling me I now need to talk about karaoke like I'm supposed to.

But maybe I'll talk about karaoke tomorrow. It'll give me a reason to blog tomorrow and get back into it like I was supposed to be doing from the beginning. I have so much I need to write about. I worked for a year at a place that was like an oil spill of inspiration, equal parts prolific and deadly. I have stories about old people, about rich people, about poor people, about bosses, about co-workers who only speak spanish, about contractors, about electricians, about hirings and firings, about connivings and deception, all within the fascinating world of property management. Does anything sound so boring as property management? No. Nothing does. But once I recover from the trauma, I'll show you how not boring it really was, and why I'll never, ever, EVER live in a condominium unless people learn how to not be assholes, which I think we can all agree will never happen. Basically, I was the switchboard for every SINGLE individual's complaints against each other, from upper management to lower management to employees to residents to outside contractors. It was me. A human dumpster. I was a 512K modem and everyone was trying to log on at once. Does that make sense? If it doesn't, nobody tell me. Just pretend like I know what I'm talking about, so I can keep pretending I know enough about computers to keep my job.

Oh, big news: I GOTS KINDLE. And it is amazing. CS got it for me, and for us there is no sanctity in Christmas so we just gave each other our gifts a week ago. Couldn't wait. As of now I have downloaded 55 free books, all classics, and ohmygosh it's amazing. I have War and Peace, Moby Dick, Aristotle's Ethics, Origin of Species, Machiavelli's The Prince, and all those books that are for free on Amazon for Kindle because they are out of copyright so they are no longer anybody's property. Holy moly. Now, all the classic books I've always wanted to read are mine and I don't have to buy them or cart them around. I said I want interesting bookshelves and I still do, but really, who would choose to have a physical copy of War and Peace if they could have an electronic one stored with 54 other books on something with the size and heft of a child's dinner plate? From Kmart? (I went there.) The dinosaurs went extinct when an astronaut dropped War and Peace out the window and it slammed into Earth. True story. That's how big that damn book is.

I'm reading a book right now called Herland, by Charlotte Perkins Gilman. Required reading for any feminist. For anyone, I'd say. Not that I think her version of utopia is viable at all or even minutely possible, but to see a woman write (in 1915) about how women are defined as being not men is extremely interesting. And also to think about what women would be like if they were not exposed to men or anything man-like for 2,000 years is thought provoking. Go read it. GO DOWNLOAD IT FOR FREE TO YOUR KINDLE! Don't have a kindle? Bummersauce. Get your man to buy you one and download all that feminismy goodness.

I got him Donkey Kong Returns, or whatever that new Wii game is. He loves it and I love it too - I'm video game challenged. The stress of it is too much for me, but Donkey Kong is fabulous because people like me (or young children with no motor skills) can be Diddy Kong, who hops onto Donkey Kong's back and is then controlled by the person playing Donkey Kong! You're holding a controller, and you don't have to actually DO anything! It's a marvel. Why did no one think of this sooner? But the best part is this - if you shake the controller a little, Diddy Kong throws bananas at stuff. So you're riding along, doing all the jumpy, swingy stuff on Donkey Kong's dime, and then lo! a pinchy crabby thing! shake your controller and throw a banana at it! *gasp* you stunned it! And then Donkey Kong jumped on it and killed it!

CONGRATULATIONS. YOU ARE PLAYING VIDEO GAMES. Now go read a book on your kindle.

I love the future.

Bowling.

On the 8th, the scrapyard held the Christmas party at a bowling alley, and if it's possible to get drunk off a plate of nachos, I did it.

It was a lot of fun. I love bowling. I suck at it, but I love it. I used to be really good, I don't know what happened. I used to be good enough that I didn't even embarrass myself when I bowled with computer scientist (CS), and he even took bowling as a PE credit for college one summer. He took bowling and billiards - needed 2 PE classes to graduate! Why? What the hell? I needed a PE class too. I took self defense - it was a lot of rolling around on mats and meditation. Question: Why do we still do PE in college? Shouldn't college PE go the way of those manners/embroidery/pleasing-your-husband-after-a-long-day-at-the-office classes the womenfolk used to have to take? It's college. We GROWN. And half of us are doing college sports. Probably don't need to spend 3 hours a week playing kickball anymore. Especially when you're playing kickball with half your team hungover from last night's rager. So good for CS for taking bowling and billiards. If you're going to make me take PE I'm going to take the most ridiculous PE you offer, and really, you're practically asking for it by offering ping pong.

Where was I? Oh, yes. Being terrible at bowling. How terrible, you ask? Like, 38 pins terrible. That's right. I knocked down 38 pins, out of all those rolls, and one of them was a strike. How did I get a strike? I said I didn't used to suck so badly. It must have been one of those amnesiac clarity moments where you remember your name for a split second and then go back to forgetting that you killed somebody. Or pretending that you forgot you killed somebody. Either way, I don't trust amnesiacs.

But I got to hang out with DP, which was wonderful. We sucked at bowling together, but she has an excuse that I don't have - carpal tunnel and 8+years since the last time she bowled. Last time I went bowling was this summer, and she still beat me the first time. CS got to meet everyone though, and I got to meet some voices I only knew over the phone, and I got a fun new nickname at the office! Can you guess what it is?

38. They call me 38.

And I got some gift cards for being the worst bowler ever! They were pity gifts. I can't tell you want they are, because I'm re-gifting them. You'll know what they are if you are lucky enough to be the recipient. Or unlucky enough, depending on whether or not you're offended that I wasn't going to get you anything until I was handed some gift cards for free.

By the way, how do you tabulate bowling? What is the DEAL with those strikes and spares and extra roll at the end? You get three strikes in a row, your score stays hidden until you mess up, and all of a sudden you have a zillion points. Ridiculous. It's the same in football. Six points? Seven points? One point field goal? Two point field goal? Screw it. Scoring sucks. It breeds self esteem issues in people who are bad at sports. Or people who are bad at figuring out how you tally sports scores. And people like me who are bad at both would prefer to sit aside and overdose on bowling alley nachos than dive into the fray and emerge 45 minutes later with a nickname like 38.

I'm kind of bummed I was so terrible, even though the night was fun. My body disobeys my brain, and I hate it. I would get up there and say to myself, "ok, we know we're slinging our arm to the left and it's going straight to the gutter. So, let's straighten out the wrist this time." And I'd feel my wrist go straight and I'd aim for the arrows on the lane like you're supposed to, and the ball would go right to the gutter. CS would tell me I swung it left, and I KNEW I felt my arm practically bending itself to the right to send it a different direction. My mind is right there doing exactly what it's supposed to do but my appendages are total snot balls about it, like rebellious teenagers who turn up the My Chemical Romance too loud and write bad poetry while their parent (my brain) is screaming through the bedroom door about doing homework or some other totally lame shit.

I've always been that way, to my great shame. It must be so GREAT to be good at sports. I sucked at karate. I couldn't jump, I couldn't kick, my arms wouldn't do what they were supposed to do, but they fooled my brain into thinking everything was going great. It's only when I look at pictures or video of myself later that I realize how ridiculous I looked.

sigh.

I strained my ankle tendon the other day. I think it's the Achilles, if ancient greek artifacts are at all accurate. Far be it from me to check a medical text. Painted clay pots were good enough for my ancestors, dammit, and they're good enough for me. But all I did was stand on my tip toes to put something on a shelf and I felt it go rat-tat-tat-tat! and now it doesn't hurt and my foot motion capabilities are completely the same, but every now and then it shudders a little like it's having a bad memory. Both my knees make sandpaper noises in my ears when I go up stairs or crouch down, but I blame that on the karate and how I had to jump up and down and run around on a cement floor without shoes for 5 years. Right when my legs were growing the most, too. Bummer. That's gonna be some surgery in about 30 years.

I'll just have to console myself with being good at brain things. I'm very good at brain things. Like...like....um....math logic science history physics random, useless trivia. (The thing on the end of your shoelace is called an aglet.)

And reading. Music?

Know what I'm good at? Cooking. Planning on how to move from one house to the other, and packing up stuff. I'm good at budgeting. I'm good at making other people feel happy and whole. I'm caring! I'm punctual. You can trust me usually. Just don't ask me to split up a dinner check. Or figure out a bowling score.

Public Service Announcement.

Hey urr-body - my computer has been enlisted into homework service for at least the weekend, so the blogs will be coming later. School comes first!

Love,
Jacky

Navigation.

Yesterday I drove all over Annapolis, which was the USA's first capital city, and even though that posterity would be nice I'm glad they moved it to that half-breed swamp DC. Annapolis could not handle the nation's traffic and would sink into the Chesapeake. Although the old bars in downtown would probably still be open to service all the congressmen and senators who would stumble in after a particularly rigorous filibuster to drown their sorrows in liquor and complain about how hard their lives are to the less-than-minimum-wage beer wench as she refilled the pretzel bowl.

As I'm reading over that statement, I realize a particular descriptive phrase could be seen as bigoted because of the current demographic spread of DC. Allow me to remind my gentle readers that DC was created by pulling land from Virginia and Maryland, so it is a half-breed. Which is great, because if it mated with another city it would make a baby city with a more robust genetic code, and we need that kind of thing nowadays. Our cities are far too sickly, with their busted up roads and condemned buildings and lack of proper circulation. Lookin' at you, Baltimore.

DC It was also built over a swamp. These are facts. Ruminate upon their factness with a fine cabernet.

So I was driving around Annapolis after about 6 years of living away. I guess I've only been away for about 2, but 4 years of college can atrophy your geographic memory better than most hallucinogens. It's like you dump the old stuff to make room for the new. "So that's what stellar parallax is! Aaaaaand I have no idea where I live now." It really doesn't help that Annapolis is constantly under construction, and unlike other cities (ahem) it gets that shit taken care of. Every semester when I'd go back home I'd be confronted with some new traffic pattern that made no sense to me and screwed up my entire map of the city. And it's also constantly building new and taller buildings with new convoluted shopping centers. I think there used to be a law in Annapolis that you couldn't build over a certain height, and when you would drive there from Route 2 you could always see the white peaks of Suntrust Bank, which were designed to look like sails.

Now you see a huge apartment building that is only probably 1/10th sold because of the recession and were converted to rental apartments to avoid bankruptcy. Poor condo owners, who now find themselves surrounded by snotty 20somethings who only moved there to be within walking distance to all the bars in the shopping center below. I weep for the ladies who work in that office. They probably get 50 bitchy phone calls a day. There is nothing nastier than a bunch of half-rich people who are pissed about being upside-down in a condo surrounded by people who play Call of Duty on max volume and bring the party back to their place when Cadillac Ranch closes at 2.

So Annapolis' construction projects can eff off. I don't want to say I'm a bad driver because I think I'm pretty good, but I am a terrible navigator. I'm like an ant who gets the leaf dropped in its path. If you change how I'm supposed to get there, the entire map in my head erases and becomes an empty abyss of nothingness. I think it might be because I have such an awful time telling left and right. I can do it, but it takes me about 5 seconds longer than other people. It's the one thing that never clicked for me as a kid, so when I have no home base of reference and you change the flight plan it becomes empty infinity in all directions. Here is something that will help me out: If you are navigating for me, don't wait til we're right up on the turn and tell me to go right because I am going to either miss it or go left. You need to tell me on the street before so my brain has time to confer with itself and figure out what you're trying to tell me. It seems like for everyone else it's instant, just like thought or speaking. You say "go right," and all the little office workers in my brain throw their papers in the air and start rushing into other people's cubicles and punching them in the face and throwing rolling chairs out the windows. It's chaos.

In college when I was learning how to drive in Baltimore I had my friends tell me "this way" for turning right and "that way" for turning left. It worked much better. But driving in Baltimore is a whole other blog.

And telling me, "just go North" means NOTHING to me. When I go up a hill, feels like north. When I go down, feels like south. When I turn left it feels like West and when I go right it feels like East, so screw the compass.

I wish I was better at navigation. It's possible I'll be living in new places next year and would really prefer not to take four years to acclimate myself to the area. I don't want a GPS for a place I'm supposed to call home. Dad has a GPS that's supposed to be voice activated so you can do the hands-free driving thing while you're GPS'ing, which is a miserable failure whenever he tries to use it. He tries to tell it to find Annapolis and it sends him to Indianapolis. He wants to go home and instead goes to Rome, Texas. I want to be able to say oh, yeah, we're here and we need to go here, so we'll go this way. Like they did in the old days. Technology is becoming a handicap, kids! Hope you didn't toss your atlases, because when the End Times are here you're going to need them, and even then they might not be much help because of the disastrous state of the highways. All I can say is I hope it happens quick like that Nicholas Cage movie where the sun explodes and the aliens drop the kids off on the new planet. Although I bet they'd plan their cities poorly, too. So I'm pretty much stuck being a terrible driver no matter what planet I'm on. Stupid aliens. Take a few college grads and Ph.ds next time, you know, people who can repopulate the planet and rebuild it at the same time and don't have all that time-wasting puberty to go through. I volunteer - I'll be the griot. As long as I can bring a kindle with me I'll be able to bring at least 3,500 books. Sorry, guys, the holies ain't making the cut. Our new religion is Star Wars.

Ladies.

Today I went shopping with my friend H and I bought bins and sleeping bags. I bought the bins because I need to pack up my crap and I need sleeping bags for 5 year old boys. I'm not crazy about the design on them - it's this pixellated blue camouflage pattern and I kind of totally hate it when non-military people use or wear camo, but they are blue which is a calming color with good juju. And my other options were all that stupid kiddie design crap like Hannah Montana or Dora the Explorer or Cars with Tow Mater and Bonnie Hunt's sexy blue convertible car character grinnin' all over the place. Why Bonnie Hunt? Was she really the sexiest voice that movie could swing for their heroine? And do I remember correctly that her car was supposed to be owned by a lawyer? Am I making that up? Because I don't remember any people in that movie. And there were a lot of things that only people could make, like neon signs and buildings and stuff. All the cars must have killed the people. I'm not putting sleeping 5 year olds in zippered polyester covered in pictures of such dastardly villains, so I went with blue pixel camouflage.

I put a distress signal out on facebook that I wanted more lady vocalists on my iPod. Most of my music is dudes. That's cool, I like dudes, but I want to expand my horizons and I want to get into the female perspective on stuff. Most songs are about love (unless you are the Decemberists, in which case it's about ghosts and princesses and vendettas) and I feel like I'm neglecting 51% of the population's take on the subject. That's right, gentlemen - there's more of us than of you. Now if we could all figure out how to vote the same way we could run this joint.

I hate to say it, but in the past I have not enjoyed women's voices or their music or lyrics. I don't know why. I have preferred men's voices and music. I don't know if this is because I have been conditioned to like men's voices more, if it's because there are so many more men vocalists and bands out there in the genres I prefer, or if it's because I am attracted to men. I have a male friend who's name IS his initials so I can't really name him here, but he probably has more female vocalists in his music library than male vocalists, and his library is impressive indeed. When I last spoke to him I think he was up to 250 GB. Now it's probably more. I remember not even believing that there were enough women musicians (of our preferred genres) out there to fill up that many gigs. For shame, Jacky.

I remember asking him about his vast collection of lady singers and he said something to the tune of, "women's voices are my favorite instrument. I think it's because I'm attracted to women, but I prefer them." So maybe that's it. I think I've wanted to be sung to, and I've wanted to be sung to by a guy. I used to listen almost exclusively to musicals and they have the most wonderful love songs in musicals. Just amazing. And those songs are sung TO somebody, and aren't for a bunch of half-attentive gender-nonspecific people listening to the radio on their way to the grocery store. Because THOSE songs by women almost KILLED my ability to enjoy lady singers. Are you hearing me, Katy Perry? Faith Hill? LeAnn Rimes, Rihanna, Britney, Christina, Miley, Madonna(recent)? Yeah you, Sheryl Crow and Shania Twain, guilty. Taylor Swift...you're ok. And then gasbags like Heidi Montag tried to crowbar their way into a musical career...current pop-culture women singers do not have a terrifically impressive or illustrious curriculum vitae right now, and I just don't know where to go or how to look for the artists who perform in the styles and genres I like.

And damn, I loved those musicals. I had planned on being a musical pit-orchestra violinist from about ages 12 to 20, did you know? Because the music is so gorgeous. Musical love songs are meant to immerse all of your senses into the beauty of a perfect moment, and I know I have been completely sucked in by that. I think listening to musicals and hearing fantastic voices sing beautiful songs to enraptured lovers really shaped my tastes. I was young! And I had fantasies! And they involved handsome heroes confessing their love for me through song! And those feelings have hopped the fence and attached themselves to my current musical tastes today! Conversely, what women sang about in musicals sucked a little bit. They always got the "woman ballads," as my friend P says, which is a slow song about waiting for love or wishing for love or being confused my love or wanting to sacrifice everything for love or some other kind of melancholy boo-hoo shit. Not awesome. So I'd skip forward until Robert Goulet sang "If ever I would leave you" and imagine myself up on the balcony.

But now, I think what I have in my real life is a lot better than all those Handsome Hero Fantasies, and the thought of having men sing to me isn't nearly as wonderful as having one particular person give me a kiss goodnight. In fact, they're something I almost want to throw off myself, like training wheels - "well, don't need THESE stupid things anymore" - and I am aghast that women are so poorly represented in my music, which I listen to daily. Bad feminist! I realize I've almost cut myself off from a whole universe of expression, and it's one that I feel I should appreciate more because it springs from people who share a lot of what I am. And I KNOW they are out there, and I know they sing about awesome stuff in awesome ways, and I know I haven't found them only because I've been a lazy S.O.B in tracking them down, especially with such grand assets like le internet magnifique at my disposal. And seriously, after posting the query on facebook, I had about 30 suggestions in mere hours, most of which were FABULOUS.

So pretty soon I'm gonna be knee deep in lady voices. Next is to read more lady authors. Stand by, Facebook.

Cooking.

Yesterday I perfected the divine art of toffee-making in my friend L's kitchen. I successfully brought sugar and butter to 300 degrees in a saucepan without using a candy thermometer. This isn't easy. It's taken me three winters to do it right. L and I made 3 batches and in the past we've burned the first batch, undercooked the second batch so it came out all crumbly and useless, and juuuuuust barely got the third batch to the crunch point. We have done this because candy thermometers absolutely suck. Who came up with this design? "Ok, lets make it a huge dial the size of a coaster and then give it a long metal spike that sticks directly into the center of the pot so no one can stir what's inside, and then let's slide this crappy rubber clip up the spike but not secure it at all so it falls off and flicks nuclear candy into the air. This is brilliant. Best idea ever." Oh, and one more thing about candy thermometers, a wee eccentricity, a minute detail, just a teeny, tiny piccadillo...if the thermometer touches the bottom of the pot, even for a second, you're FUCKED. START OVER.

So candy thermometers can suck it. This year L and I wanted to find one of those bitchin' laser thermometers that are shaped like guns, and you point it at something and it tells you the temperature instantly. We couldn't get one in time, though, and all the ones our friends had were covered in pit grease and oil from car shops and other mechanic-type things, and we didn't think penzoil and toffee were such a good flavor combo.

If you're making toffee the L and Jacky way, the first batch is going to be a loss, unless you have a coven of people who routinely destroy their tastebuds with cigarettes and black coffee. These people have the mind-over-matter thing going for them and don't actually taste things anymore, so burned batches don't bother them - they just imagine what they think it's supposed to taste like or how they remember it tasting as a child. Toffee feels crunchy in their mouths and they enjoy the stroll down memory lane. Luckily, L's husband has been working at the scrapyard for years, so our burned batch has always found a home.

The second batch is awesome crumbled over ice cream. Not a loss, but not toffee.

The third batch is...well, there's no describing it. And this year, I pitched a perfect game. One pound of butter with 2 cups of sugar brought to a boil over medium heat and stirred slowly until it's at 300 degrees, then dumped onto a cookie sheet, spread out (quickly before it cools!) and drop hershey bars face-down on top. Cover with another cookie pan and let it sit outside in the cold air until the chocolate it completely hardened. That's why it's a winter project. After all that, lift up the sheet of toffee and smash it apart with the blunt end of a butter knife, and eat so much of it you get so sick of it you can't eat it again for another 12 months. That is also why it's a winter project.

I wonder who invented toffee. Who was the first person to discover that this exact ratio of butter, sugar, and temperature yields the perfect piece of candy? Did they start with the ideal of toffee in their minds and attempt to reach that goal through experimentation, or did they have no idea where they were going and just burnt up a whole bunch of valuable butter and sugar until something worked? I am fascinated by invention. Inventors, moreso. To be able to see something where there was nothing and then make it reality, that's amazing to me. I want to invent things. I feel like I have a lot of great ideas, but no funding or ability to plan or do math. Inventing takes a lot of math, of course you know. But to invent things usually requires already-invented things to be molded or shaped or changed into new ways they have never been made before, like making a plastic or metal prototype. Does one call up a steel yard and just ask for a certain dimension of metal? It's such a mystery.

I want to invent simple things. I want to invent non-computer things, because those things will still be around after the apocalypse. There have been three blackouts in Baltimore in different areas for no discernable reason at all in the past week and a half and I'm fairly convinced the End Times are here, so I have very little time to get my inventions off the ground.

I want to invent a bookcase that converts to a carrying case for books. Each shelf will break apart and close up and can be moved from place to place without disrupting the books or packing them into bins. Then when you arrive at your destination, you stack up the carrying cases, open them up, and you have your bookshelf. It might be a little industrial-chic looking, but that's totally in right now.

I have a great idea to reinvent the candy thermometer. I think it should be a little marble sized ball sensor that gets dropped into your batch and transmits the temperature to a little display on the counter. It would read the temp from it's surface, which is completely submersed in whatever you're making. It would be like a little laundry ball for your 3oo degree candy. It would allow for stirring because it's just in there, hanging around. It could have a heat-resistant string that ties to the top of your spoon so when you're done you can yank it out of the mixture like yoink!

My dad invented things. Well, not really. But he got really resourceful with the junk he had lying around. One Christmas he cut the end off of a garden hose and stuck it down through the tree and into the tree stand. The little metal end wrapped around a branch at arm level. We could water the tree standing up with a watering can instead of on our stomachs on the floor with a ball jar, getting poked in the face with sappy pine needles. I liked that invention. A few years before, the antenna fell off the house the day of the Superbowl and out in farm country in 1998 we didn't get any internet or cable or satellite, so dad climbed on the roof and duct taped our huge antenna to the fake chimney. It was still there 10 years later when we moved.

Dad also cooks a lot. He makes peanut brittle every year, and it took him about 3 winters to perfect his peanut brittle making too. I think he may have started with a candy thermometer like me, but gave it up after a couple of candy-thermometer-related disasters. Maybe he still uses one. I think he might even stir it with the spike, which is a resourceful use of an existing invention. That's his specialty - which will certainly come in handy when the apocalypse hits and we'll have to find some use for all these iPads and Xboxes.

Books.

This morning, my computer scientist and I said the same word at the same time inside two separate, unconnected trains of thought. He was singing Lady Gaga's Poker Face and I was telling the cat to get his ass out of my face, and at the exact same moment with the same pitch and articulation, we said face. I love that stuff. It makes me feel good about the state of our species' collective consciousness.

I cleaned today. It's my favorite thing to do on Saturdays, even though it's Wednesday. I made the bed, did laundry, cleaned up my nightstand (soooo many paystubs) and threw away about 19 Panera receipts. That's an exaggeration. I threw away about 15 Panera receipts. Honesty is the most important thing when blogging, ladies and gentlemen.

As I cleaned, I had the same thought I always have when I clean - "holy moly, I have a lot of books." I like to say holy moly. The letters stop looking like they form words and sounds if you look at them for long enough. But I do. I have so many books it's overwhelming, and the last time I moved them all it ended up in pulled back muscles and aching knees for everybody. And since then, I have acquired more books. AND I LIKE IT THAT WAY. Books, man. The thinking man's movies.

Lately I've been thinking about moving. I'll be moving soon, and to think about packing up this stupendous collection of literature is daunting at best, but I'll just have to suffer for fascinating bookshelves. I remember going over to people's houses when I was a kid and having to occupy myself with whatever non-toys I could find - one time at my grandmother's house, she handed me one of those glass oil-and-vinegar salad dressing dispensers with the plastic tip that holds the liquid in unless you shake it. I was supposed to play with this thing. So I filled it with water, threw in some glitter I found in the obligatory craft box all grandmothers have, tossed in some lego men and pretended like they were either drowning like criminals or swimming like mermaids. Probably mermaids, because of the glitter. Can't be sure.

I wasn't dark as a child. I wasn't one of those kids who ripped the heads off of barbies and covered dolls heads with green crayola smello-marker. I took care of my stuff and played with them as their purpose allowed. I did cull hundreds of non-barbie related items and create such massive apartment complexes for them that it was almost impossible to walk in my room from time to time. One time I took a weird playdough candle holder I'd made in art class and shoved a little barbie lamppost inside and voila, barbie shower stall. I was more constructive than destructive, although the feminist in me wishes I had some stories about yanking off my barbies' little plastic bras and burning them with a matchstick.

Either way, there's probably wet glitter still in that oil bottle.

This is because my grandmother had weird books. She still has weird books, and some of those weird books have made it to my shelves. A book tour, shall we? Intruders, by Bud Hopkins. Story of alien abduction. Transformation, Whitley Streiber. Communion: A True Story, Whitley Streiber. Alien abduction. Past Lives, Future Lives, Dr. Bruce Goldberg. Past life regression. Stalking the Wild Pendulum, Itzhak Bentov. Parallel universes. Journey to Ixtlan and A Separate Reality, Carlos Casteneda. Expanding your consciousness through peyote and other such psychosomatia.

That's it. That is the fare that stocked my grandmother's shelves. That, and the Great Books - those massive tomes that St. John's College based it's curriculum off of, did you know that? All that Socrates and Ptolemy and Copernicus. As noble a gesture as that is, I hope St. John's left room in their lesson plans to correct all those mistakes they made in the 1600s. My grandmother has totally legit books I will certainly read now that my brain can process it. But for a 9 year old, come on. If she would have had some cool fiction or something, I wouldn't have had to stick lego men in her dressing dispenser. So I want fascinating bookshelves, for all ages. I want people to walk into my house and know they will never be bored. This, of course, hinges on the belief that real books will not be totally replaced by digital books.

I don't know how I feel about all these Kindles and such. I'm of two minds. The thought of having 10,000 books at my fingertips is tantalizing, but having the books hidden as a series of zeros and ones on a green circuit board the size of my earlobe makes the whole experience of reading them seem cold and unnatural. Reading isn't just for your eyes, people! It's for your hands and your nose, too! I went on Amazon recently, though, and found that you can get certain books for FREE for the Kindle, which I am 100% in favor of. All the classics, basically. All the books I don't have but always wanted to have, but all the canonical writers, for free, for a Kindle. Um...that's something I can get behind. I think the Kindle and I could be great friends.

But I'm going to need my real books. I'm going to need bins upon bins to move them, and shelves upon shelves to store them. It's going to be inconvenient, and if obsessively watching Hoarders: Buried Alive has taught me anything, it's that you need to CONTAIN. YOUR. CRAP.

I'm trying to. I really am. I've been doing so well getting rid of the unnecessary, but I just don't put books in that category. So I'm going to collect real books so I'll have a fascinating house, and people will always be excited to come over and stay, or bring their kids, or hang out for a few hours away from the world, which is exactly what books are supposed to be for. And when you think about it, people in this world have spent inane amounts of time and money collecting much stupider things.

*ahem*Pokemon.